
Joan Margaret Clinock. 1915 – 2004.
In January 2004 I was in my mother’s house in England. She had recently died, age 88, and being a single child I was sorting out her home alone. I sat at her dining room table, the same table I had sat at so often as a child, and wrote this for her. I post it today in love and memory of love given without limits for so many years. I will always miss you mum, always.
The cyclamen still blooms
on your windowsill,
in colours of a Canadian sunrise
covered in tears of rain.
I want to tell you how beautiful it is
but I can’t find you.
I suppose that I am an orphan now,
an old gray child crying for his mum
in a house empty of you.
Yet I embrace your life in me
as once you embraced my life in you.
I am who I am because of you
and who you were.
And all you gave to me
I now give to my sons.
And they, in turn, will pass it on.
And so the circle is unbroken
and you will live in us.
When I was a child
you dispersed my shadows
with your light
and my sadness with your smile.
And after every storm
You were my sunshine.
You hated cold and dark,
loved the sun and long summer days.
But although it is winter
on this windy coast
you would like it here today
because the warmth and brightness
of your dearest friends
and their flowers of farewell
have touched this place with spring.
Soon you will join your husband
under the wild Cornish sky
that you both loved so much,
and your spirits will be free
to wander the ancient sea and hills
in the wind that lifts gulls
above the rocks and heather.
And I will think of you
there together
and be still.
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